The life and times of a K-Dog

I feel emo.

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 06:25:59 GMT

Horoscopes are such crap anymore.

Today you might be in the mood for play and fantasy. You could be thinking about romance, losing yourself in some enticing daydreams. Right now, there could be someone whose image you can't forget. This could be a person from your past, or it could be a new acquaintance. Something about them is very attractive. You'll have to figure out what to do about these feelings, because there is tremendous magnetism there.

Now to my emo (BTW this is my homework for my creative writing class, the assiment was creative non-fiction. Yea it probly sucks for a college paper, but I fucking hate writing about myself.)

Alone

Alone, that is how I remember my childhood. While most people had their best friend in Elementary and Jr. High I didn’t. My first childhood friend was my Nintendo, it keep me company when no one else would. I didn’t have kids on the street growing up to play tag or hide-n-go-seek with. Always living in the same spot your entire life doesn’t help when no one really moves in. Made fun of since kindergarten cause of the way my name sounds when it was said doomed me to the sidelines of popularity.

Video games were my friends; no matter how lame they were I still played each one just as much as the last. One would think that growing up alone would make one a stronger person. That they would be able to handle the small things in life that are tossed at them, well you would be wrong. Being alone is hard because you don’t have the social interaction that the rest of the world has. So being unable to work with others can hinder you once you do escape it. Having to handle any and all problems you come across, not a soul to confide in, tell what troubles you or just to here a friendly voice where things I was used to. Video games became my friends this way, this is where I spent my life and felt like something I did mattered. There no matter what I would always have my friends and allies stand by my side to support me and pick me up when I fall.

This was my summer of my 7^th to 8^th grade year. The same time as when my mother left, moved to Iowa never to see me again. So now not having any friends other then sprites on a cartridge and my own mother abandoning me, I guess I could truly know what its like to be alone. I would sleep all day and be up at night when the house was quite being only my father and I now. He wasn’t an easily approachable person very angry all the time. So I was in my room, not doing anything but playing game after game. This I though made me happy, but it only further opened up the dark whole that resides in my soul, the part of me that could only be fixed by others who were not around. Solace was what I had in my games.

The days would come and go. I would do the same thing everyday, with maybe a brief bit of interaction with my father. Though when I did talk to him it was usually him telling me things a 13 year old didn’t need to hear about their mother. Seeing the pain and anguish in his face, hearing the venom in his words they way he spoke about her made me want to stay alone for fear of someone having that much power over me. Maybe seeing all this happen scared me away from opening up to people, I know that now I don’t tell people almost anything personal about me at all. Most of my friends are what would normally be considered acquaintances. Same as it was back then, I would talk to them when I saw them but never go out of my way to say hi or hang out with anyone. Though it was the summer so I was always in my home all the time, just with my only real friends my video games.

Alone is how I was back then, scared and confused. No real soul to talk to at all, I got used to it. Thinking back on it now I understand a lot more about myself, why I am this way. Why I don’t really talk to anyone outside of work or school. I guess that the acts of the past will always haunt us. No matter what I do or try I end up alone someway. Though I guess I did get one good thing out of this. I will always have my video games no matter what. Maybe being alone isn’t that bad, you never have to worry about heartbreak or someone causing you untold amounts of pain. This I still see in my dad when my mom gets brought up. Hmm, I guess I’ll never have to worry about that cause I will always have my videogames to keep me company.

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 12:16:59 GMT

No geek makeover for me. I guess I look to normal, damn retards don't know what larping is.

I fucking hate my real name even more.

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 22:26:47 GMT

Look what was in the news today..god i hate my name.

http://tv.msn.com/tv/article.aspx?news=228739>1=7703

Well i always knew one of the boyband bitches was a fag. Why it have to be this one...

Oh god sore

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 18:30:16 GMT

I went indoor rock climbing yesterday. It was fun, but dear god am I sore. It really just hurts to type. ouchies....

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 16:38:50 GMT

Blood Elf Paladins and Draenei Shaman
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7-21-06
s we draw closer to the release of World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade, more of the secrets shrouding the draenei and blood elves are being revealed. In the upcoming expansion, you will finally be able to play classes that were previously unavailable to your faction. The blood elves have harnessed the power of the Light for their own needs, and the Horde recognizes the value of these renegade blood elf paladins. Meanwhile, the draenei have been granted the wisdom and strength of the elements, and a number of draenei now follow the path of the shaman.

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Sat, 22 Jul 2006 19:08:41 GMT

Yay i got to sleep in to noon today. That felt good.

bah

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 08:14:59 GMT

Well one week now in school. Its been ok, physics is fun.

WEll i did my geek interview today and I will find out on friday if I get it or not.

I think i might have a shot cause I do ok in front of crowds. They need people who can be on tv and what not.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 07:47:45 GMT

crap im doing.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 04:06:04 GMT

Well i got this email today about the contest at my school i signed up for. Well here ya go the details.

Hey!

Thank you for responding to our casting call for DeVry’s “Geek to Chic”. We are super excited that you are interested in participating in this cool promotion!

Of all the applicants, our selection committee will choose three girls and three guys to be featured. In order to audition, you must sign up for your video-taped audition appointment in Student Services. The AUDITION days/times are JULY 20TH and JULY 21ST from 9:00AM – 11:30AM on both days. APPOINTMENTS are scheduled in 15 minute increments. Please schedule your appointment as soon as possible. If for some reason, you are not available during these times, contact me immediately to make other arrangements.

Read below to find out what’s involved in this production!

q Each person will be featured in their own :30 second commercial. The commercial will inform viewers what you are studying at DeVry and personal tidbits about your life. During the 2nd week in August, your commercial will be filmed on-campus by the CW6 production team.

q Your picture and bio will be featured on the official website of the campaign, quick6.com. Each person will receive a makeover. All elements of the makeover are at the stylist’s own discretion.

q You need to be available for community events in conjunction with DeVry and The CW6.

q You will be transformed from a DeVry Student to a Local Celebrity!

q You will receive FREE tickets to events/concerts at either Cricket Pavilion or Glendale Arena, as well as some new clothes!

School AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 15:29:19 GMT

Well I am back in school for my 3rd term. Taking 19 credit hours, yay! My class schedule is odd..

CIS-170 C# programming with Lab
8:00am-11:00 monday; 8:00am-10:00 tuesday.

PHYS-216 Physics
4:00pm-6:00 monday; 5:00pm-6:00 wednesday; 2:00pm-4:00 Friday

Econ-312 Econimics
1:00pm-2:00 tuesday; 1:00pm-3:00 wednesday

ENGL-220 Creative writing. (( heh ang im gonna write stories soon))
11:00am-12:00 tuesday; 10:00am-12:000 wednesday

GSP-240 Practical Game Design with Lab
7:00am-12:00 thursdays

Now fill in the gaps with me working at school. Yeah I'm gonna be busy this semester.

Stolen form Ang's journal!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 10:54:32 GMT

You scored as You have the Gift of Empathy. You have been blessed with the gift of Empathy. Even though it is a heavy burden to carry the pain of others, know this that you can help them. Though I must advise you to learn how to not take their pain upon yourself and drag you down

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You have the Gift of Empathy

88%

You have the Gift of Discernment

81%

You have the Gift of Wisdom

81%

You have the Gift of Perception/Aura Vision

69%

You have the Gift of a Seer

44%

You sadly do not recognize your gift yet

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Well in other news!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 10:51:56 GMT

I have stop drinking normal soda and have starting only drinking coke zero and sprite zero. So yay thats like at least 1000 calories outa my diet along from just soda. Plus getting rid of all that sugar is good for you skin yay!

Been swimming alot this week, gone like 5 times so far and went to the gym once. I need to hit the gym like 3 times a week at least. Damnit yell at me peoples! Maybe a monday weds fri or tues thurs saturday. Then swim on mon wed sun. Swimming gets an extra day cause its fun! Then i will be doing some exersise everyday at least. I should workout all this week if I can to help get my ass in shape faster. I'm losing the weight and even my aunt noticed when she saw me. So yea cutting 1k + calories outa ya diet makes improvments fast. BAh its almost 4 and I have work at 1..must sleep.

4th of july sux

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 10:47:46 GMT

Yeah it sucked hung out with my family for a bit then came home. Played world of warcraft and then blah i cant sleep.

OMG so full

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 05:46:55 GMT

Went out to eat tonight with my roomates it was Kelly's Birthday. Went to this really nice restraunt called Maggiano's.
(( http://www.maggianos.com/ ))
The place looks really high class. But its pretty cheap on the price and omg so much food they give you. Its insane.

Another place I've been with them is a cajun place called Redfish.
(( http://www.redfishamerica.com/ ))
Good food there as well. Heh get to see some new things living out here in Scottsdale. Good news is I now know of two kickass restraunts to take someone too.

But me and dating, yeah, not for awhile. Though still good to know places.

Took a quiz

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 21:19:07 GMT

I took the straight acting quiz to see what I would get.

Heh and here is my score

Here is the link to the quiz if you want to take it.

http://www.straightacting.com/quizzes/guy/index.php

GETTING THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 20:46:33 GMT

I'm gonna move in with some friends from school..So I will be living in scottsdale...but yay away from father and his BS.

Passed all my classes....(barely)

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 20:52:44 GMT

I passed math with a D...doesnt matter i still pass and get credit for it..stupid teacher putting stuff on the final she only barly covered and then not just 1-2 questions but like 10..ugh..

But I should have got B's and maybe an A or two in my other classes.

EMO people suck

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:52:14 GMT

Yeah thats about sums it up.

Oh yeah QQ more

Random chat spam

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:50:37 GMT

Bah, whats with everyones friends only journals? Are they whores who don't want others to know how big of a skank they are..I mean if its only for there friends why don't they just email them. Also do we really need some stupid picture saying ZOMG this is friends only...How about you guys go make a online journal place called friends only..

Rant

*Myspace is for loosers and Fags so if you have one you are one or both of those. If think otherwise and flame me your a looser by defalt.*

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:43:38 GMT

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0% Dixie

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HATE MATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:17:46 GMT

Bah the teacher still hasnt posted our math finals. Whats worse is the guy who normally gets 100's on the test says he thinks he got a 75% on it probly worse...; ; God i hope i can at least get a D then i can move on to physics where the gdamn math has a point.

Finals

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 21:21:02 GMT

OMG FINALS SUCK!

Yeah so I got a B in my CIS class yay seeing as how 2 weeks ago I had a D...heh..scored a 100% on the final.

Got a B on my comp final..the stupid system we use to take the test sucks.
But a really high A on the other test so i should have an A/B in that class..

GSP..I have an A going into the final tommorrow..I'll see how I will do.

Math..were just gonna skip this one...its probly a D..but everyone pray for a C.

BAH POSTY THINGY!

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 09:06:46 GMT

Meh today was meh.

Woke up at my aunts house after i was dragged there last night after a huge fight with my dad. Blah...Anyways so i get woke up at like 11:00am after i didnt go to sleep til around 7am. Yet im still up...I must not need that much sleep anymore or something. MEh ill go to bed shortly after this. But today we went to top shelf which is a mexican resturant. Where insted of talking to me trying to help me understand what is going on or what i need to do. Like i was told she was gonna do. Insted all she did was talk about her own problems. So after I get home I eneded up cleaning the kitchen. Washed the dishes, sweeped and mopped the floor. Then i picked up my bathroom and cleaned it up as well. Washed the counters down and cleaned the mirror. Then I came into my room and played world of warcraft, killed some alliance....WOOT. I was on my undead mage. I really wish i had my mage and priest on the same server. Sigh... So I did that for most of the night. Then i shut off the game. Checked my email and just got on trillian. Talked to one of my friends from FFXI(Final fantasy XI) he was telling me about stuff thats happened in the past couples of days that I havent been playing.

So blah thats my dad. I need to post more so I figure i would just do quick posts about my day.

But in other news....I start school again on monday.
OMG I HAVE 5 CLASSES!!!!!!!1111!!!1oneoneone
But one of them is online and I should be able to get that one done quickly. If I could every get the damn cd to work...>.<;

FYI-I am thinking about you and wondering if you are ok. Was hoping to see you on so I know that your ok. But your most likey out with friends. Have fun, be safe, love you. <3

Mistakes deserve to be fixed

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 02:43:02 GMT

I have to be strong.

I have to realize what may be better for both of us.

I have hopes and dreams and goals, and want to be around to work towards them.

Its normal to want what you can't always have, and to have what you don't always want.

I am loved and there are those close to me that truely love me. Love is complicated and simple all at the same time.

It will never be too late to regain hope...

People may not always remember what you say to them, and they may not always remember what you do to them, but they will always remember exactly how you made them feel...

Love

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 14:57:26 GMT

I made my goal.

Dan hit 19 on order of succession.

http://www.orderofsuccession.com/index.php?offset=19

Plz note it can change. But i will be keeping tabs to keep him up there.

I also gave him a kitty cat for company.